Please join me as I journal about my efforts to train and finish a 5K in 2018!
I started out with amazing intentions and then the universe had other plans.
January 1, 2018
I CAN & will run a marathon this year. Ok…let’s get realistic and start with a 5K then work my way up. I have said that every year for the last 6 years….but this one IS the one. I can’t wait to see where the journey takes me!
January 9, 2018
Tonight I went sledding with my youngest and his Boy Scout troop.
Come out and play, they said. It will be fun, they said.
Little did they know that the conditions were just right to wreak havoc on my lower limbs! Without notice my left knee went sideways instead of forward and I fell to the ground in mind altering pain. I couldn’t even see straight. My sweet husband was asking why on earth I was sitting in the snow. My knee was on fire and I could barely stand. Home we went.
How am I going to run a 5 K with my knee on fire like this? It’s not looking great.
January 10, 2018
Trip # 1 of what feels like 792 to Ortho Emergency.
Decided to go to Orthopedic Emergency. I have had so many issues with this knee that I felt it was time to seriously do something about it. Glad I did! My knee moves in ways that it shouldn’t. They put me in an immobilizer. Feeling more joy than one should ever feel [Insert extreme sarcasm HERE].
January 19, 2018
That thing is LOUD! Tried so hard to drown out the rattling from the MRI machine through meditation, that I actually fell asleep. Mission accomplished. Growing tired of the immobilizer still have nearly a month to go in this thing. My head hurts. My back hurts. My attitude hurts. This is just not all what I wanted for my health or my goals for this year.
February 16, 2018
Meeting with Surgeon.
And I quote, “Your meniscus is NOT suppose to look like that.” Apparently, after reviewing the MRI, the doctor determined that I am one of the lucky few that completely tear off the meniscus from the joint cavity and has the said torn meniscus flip on top of itself, wedging in between the two leg bones. This leaves the other side of the join meniscus-less and therefore bone on bone. No wonder it hurt! He also suggested we go ahead and clean up the bone fragments that I had accumulated from the micro-injuries sustained over the years and the cysts collected over the years. Sounds like a good time to me!
Surgery is scheduled for 3/13/18. I. Cannot. Wait.
Feeling like I have a plan today and want to do some “pre-gaming”. I want to get on top of my health and strength before surgery. I have nearly a month to prepare and to get my body going in the right direction. With that being said, these are the things I am going to work on:
- Work out with light strength training [arms & legs]
- Yoga to increase my mobility and flexibility
- Light Cardio to easily fall back into post surgery
- Meditation as a way to calm my nerves
- Eating for nutrition not for emotions. Thinking about going vegan.
March 4, 2018
Made an entirely vegan meal for my daughter and her boyfriend’s birthday. IT WAS AMAZEBALLS. I couldn’t get over how good I felt afterwards. I didn’t have that pit in my stomach feeling. I feel nourished and satisfied. I ate less. LESS! I also have noticed that my clothes are fitting better since I have been working on nutrition and exercise. I am feeling quite accomplished. Still cannot wait for surgery…but feel as if I am making progress even before the surgery has happened. FEELS GOOD!
March 12, 2018
Call from doctor saying my surgery was moved to 3/14. Are you serious? I realize that it is just one more day…however…ugh. Trying to feel gratitude. I am also feeling like I am getting a cold. Praying that this does not impact surgery. Fingers and toes crossed.
UPDATE: I cannot breathe out of my nose. I am guessing this is not an ideal circumstance. Prepping my psyche now.
March 13, 2018
Original Surgery Date.
I can feel myself getting weaker and sicker. I am doing everything that I can think of to remain as healthy as I can possibly be. I have my head over an essential oil diffuser. I am popping Vitamin C and Zinc. I even brought my own secret stash of kleenex to work as to not alarm any of my co-workers by using all of the room’s facial tissue. I have it all planned out. I will be MUCH better by the time I walk through the Surgical Center’s doors.
Best. Laid. Plans.
March 14, 2018
Surgery Day Part 1.
I say Part 1 because I never actually made it to surgery. I showed up to surgery. I wore the never attractive green, open in the back, gown. I answered all of the questions and told 5 different people my name and birthdate but when it came down to it, I was too sick to continue on. I completely understood the precautions that the surgeon and anesthesiologist were taking but I would be lying if I told you I wasn’t disappointed. I had looked forward to relief for 2 months and now I would have to wait nearly another month. Surgery is rescheduled for 4/3/18.
April 3, 2018
Surgery Day Part 2. Finally Made it! I am tired and excited all at the same time. I look forward to being sedated and having pain afterwards. I can feel myself start to get restless and anxious so I am going to practice what I have been working on all month. I meditate.
It was surreal to be calm, collected and prepared entering surgery. I didn’t feel the need to make nervous sarcastic jokes like I normally do but instead I was accepting of that which I could not control. I was supported, loved and cared for and at that moment that is all that mattered.
In post-op I woke up swearing like a truck driver so I am not sure where all that serenity went to. It hurt way more than I expected it to, but I was immensely grateful to begin the rest of this journey. Time to heal!
April 4, 2018
My children texted and asked how I was doing. I sent them this:
April 5, 2018
Day 1 of PT. I anticipated a lot of manipulation from the Physical Therapist, so I preemptively took pain medication prior to the appointment. BIG mistake! I was so out of it!! Luckily my daughter was with me! She filled out paperwork my paperwork as I was writing in old phone numbers of which do not work, could barely read where I had to sign. I was a mess. She helped me get through the appointment and drove! So grateful for her! Was beyond tired for the rest of the day and cuddled with my puppies all day.
April 7, 2018
Looked into 5Ks today. Had a less than stellar day with exhaustion and moodiness. My mood immediately changed when I started to dream about accomplishing what I had set out to do earlier this year. Yay for positive energy! I am DETERMINED to make this happen this year! I am feeling good now about progressing with my recovery! I CAN do this!
April 9, 2018
Feeling really good knowing that I can build upon this small milestone. I can’t wait to get out again and get my steps in. I think I will start recording them and posting them on my social media sites so that you can help me track the progress and keep me accountable. Find me on Facebook or Instagram.
Today’s Steps: 2471
Had Physical Therapy today and it kicked my butt! I feel better but going from 10 steps last week at this time to over 4,500 seems like I have already run a 5k. Feels good though to get moving more and more.
Ran some errands today and in that pseudo running I managed to accumulate more steps than yesterday. Not many more mind you but I will take progress.
Getting back to everyday life and responsibilities is proving to be a bit challenging. Trying to go with the flow. Fingers crossed that I can keep progressing.
You read that right. This total is for three cumulative days. I had another round of Physical Therapy on 4/12 and then I received Acupuncture on Friday 4/13. Acupuncture was amazing and helped my knee feel the best it has felt in months. However, I was so relaxed that I was useless all day.
Not going to lie…I enjoyed being useless. I read. I slept. I slept some more. Basically just listened to what my body needed. It was a profound self-care day!
The weather over the weekend here in Rochester, NY was dreadful, cold, raining and just plain miserable and I believe that had an adverse effect on my knee because as I write this I am contemplating taking a pain pill. I haven’t taken any in over a week, but my knee is so so so sore. I can’t get comfortable and I can barely walk on it. Feel like I am taking quite a few steps back today.
I remind myself that it could be worse. I head back to work tomorrow so hopefully all will go well there.
First week back to work was a success! I navigated the halls and steps just fine and managed to get a lot of steps in! I have decided to give you an insight on my weekly steps instead of a daily update. It can be overwhelming and I never want you to feel overwhelmed by my posts. I am feeling really good about my progress! The plan is once I am up to 15,000-20,000 steps a day for 3 or so days in a row that I will start to jog for a bit, even for 30 seconds at a time…I will see how it goes.
So Sunday I decided to rake just a small portion of the yard. That was a bad decision. My knee is very sore and making weird noises. Ha ha ha…never thought that might be something to worry about. Overall I am pleased with my week’s steps but it was very much under last week’s. I figured rest was much more important than pushing the limits.
New goals for next week. Going for 50K steps! That is about 7,143 a day. Fingers crossed!
April 29, 2018
Started core training today. I have a long way to go before I feel strong I feel weak all over…but also feeling determined. Once I am less embarrassed about just how far I have to go I will share my stats on the exercises that I am doing and the progress I am experiencing.